Grazia

I’m Grazia, I’m 43 and the 26th of February 2016 I evicted the not paying guest called ductal carcinoma in situ. Since that day, I faced the dark of waiting, the embarrassment to be naked, it was not awkward to be naked in front of a doctor, my physical imperfection was.

During my 30 days of radiotherapy I began to wait for my turn smiling and joking. There were times I wanted to cry even when I only  thought to go out of bed. I said to me that as leaves fall down every autumn I was not an evergreen but this didn’t mean my life was over. I took all my strength, I stopped crying and get a target: I wanted to run for 10 km in less than an hour, even if I’d never done it before unless to follow trains I never took. I went out even if I wanted to be locked inside me, I shifted my cut-off line one piece a day, I stole it space and I reached my goal. My tumor disappeared, radiotherapy stopped but the shock I had when the doctor said: ’Mrs, you have a tumor’ never passes. I still hear those words in my hears, they wake me up at night remembering life is only one. The word cancer scares, I know it well but I learnt to find something positive even in the worst situations. I had a new start, a new life but in the bad moments, in the fragile ones there’s only one thing I remember: a sign on my skin, an unaching scar that never heals.

During my path I lost some dear friends and I wanted to enjoy the freedom of the old age even for them. I run and also paddle to show that there’s life after tumor which means that it can and I can.

  • Photographer: Luigi Cataldo
  • In collaboration with: Associazione "Cuore di Donna"